I turn 28 today.
It is difficult for me to try and think the way I did when I started posting here more seriously, nearly ten years ago. I have been in many places, going through different things and doing many other different things, and I want to take today’s opportunity to talk a little bit about one of the biggest changes in my life: I focus a lot on characters now.
Continue readingPrior days:
It’s been a long while since I met a person like you.
Day 6:
I am finding troubles at believing you are real and everything is happening is real.
Day 13:
It’s becoming louder and louder a voice within me acknowledging how amazing all of your things are.
Day 20:
I’m surprised I was not aware of how many reasons and things were pointing this out.
Day 28:
I ask myself where were you this whole time.
Day 34:
I’ve noticed everything being so natural with you is the reason why I haven’t noticed until now.
Day 44:
I keep wondering to whom, or what, do I have to ask permission to allow myself to experience all of it anew.
Day 61:
The more time passes the more that urge for answers fades away.
Day 63:
I’m starting to realize how cherised were the memories I held for your past self from back then.
Day 79:
I’m starting to notice your essence in all the strings that hold the world together.
Day 80:
I am beginning to see tomorrow in a different colour.
Day 99:
I can hear the heartbeat. It is starting again.
I worship music
as moon lakes reveal
I breathe the forest wind
by the time after rains
please
always you
you
I
you
In the field of psychology, cognitive dissonance is the mental discomfort (psychological stress) experienced by a person who simultaneously holds two or more contradictory beliefs, ideas, or values. The occurrence of cognitive dissonance is a consequence of a person performing an action that contradicts personal beliefs, ideals, and values; and also occurs when confronted with new information that contradicts said beliefs, ideals, and values.
— Cognitive dissonance: Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia. Retrieved from https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cognitive_dissonance, Aug 4, 2018.
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